So there I was 16 years old in Osaka Japan. Waiting for the subway after a long day of shooting for a Japanese Magazine. I was really tired and just wanted to get back to my apartment so I could relax. I remember standing on the platform looking down at the tracks. Thinking to myself, If someone was to fall over onto the them, how would they be able to get out? I felt I was in a daze, not really paying attention to my surroundings, rather just stuck in my head in deep thought.
When all of a sudden, I hear a voice screaming from the intercom in Japanese. I have no idea what is being said other than I feel the fear in her voice. Just then someone comes running by me, so close our shoulders touch,before he jumps onto the tracks and lays himself flat down parallel with the tracks. Everything happened so fast. I couldn’t register what I was seeing. The sounds were so loud.,The screeching from the train as it was approaching, the lady screaming into the loud speaker. It was as if I was out of my body just watching what was happening.
The train couldn’t stop in time,. It runs right over the man. I see his head go down. Lights flash from him being electrocuted... It felt like everything got completely quite for a second. Then the doors of the train open and everyone starts jumping off yelling and looking under the train...
I couldn`t get home that night. The track was shut down. I was able to stay at another models apartment that wasn’t too far away. I walked there as the ambulance and police zoom by me, sirens a blare... I couldn’t get over thinking about this poor man.What could have been so bad that he had to take his own life? I was the last person he touched before he left this life. And I didn’t even know him. My agents at the time, said that this sort of thing is common in Japan, the pressure to succeed, school, family, it`s too much for some.
I just want to say to whoever may be reading this. No matter how hard life can be at times. Never give up HOPE. Hope is the LIGHT that can melt away all your dark days. We all go through hard times, some harder than others. But we can take those things that have hurt us and learn from them. Gain wisdom from them, and maybe help someone else that might be going through the same thing. It’s important that you grieve when you need to. Get angry if you have to, or just plain out cry when you feel like it. But at some point you need to let it all go. Have HOPE that things will get better. And little by little they will. I promise.... Sending you love today and always,Elisabeth
When all of a sudden, I hear a voice screaming from the intercom in Japanese. I have no idea what is being said other than I feel the fear in her voice. Just then someone comes running by me, so close our shoulders touch,before he jumps onto the tracks and lays himself flat down parallel with the tracks. Everything happened so fast. I couldn’t register what I was seeing. The sounds were so loud.,The screeching from the train as it was approaching, the lady screaming into the loud speaker. It was as if I was out of my body just watching what was happening.
The train couldn’t stop in time,. It runs right over the man. I see his head go down. Lights flash from him being electrocuted... It felt like everything got completely quite for a second. Then the doors of the train open and everyone starts jumping off yelling and looking under the train...
I couldn`t get home that night. The track was shut down. I was able to stay at another models apartment that wasn’t too far away. I walked there as the ambulance and police zoom by me, sirens a blare... I couldn’t get over thinking about this poor man.What could have been so bad that he had to take his own life? I was the last person he touched before he left this life. And I didn’t even know him. My agents at the time, said that this sort of thing is common in Japan, the pressure to succeed, school, family, it`s too much for some.
I just want to say to whoever may be reading this. No matter how hard life can be at times. Never give up HOPE. Hope is the LIGHT that can melt away all your dark days. We all go through hard times, some harder than others. But we can take those things that have hurt us and learn from them. Gain wisdom from them, and maybe help someone else that might be going through the same thing. It’s important that you grieve when you need to. Get angry if you have to, or just plain out cry when you feel like it. But at some point you need to let it all go. Have HOPE that things will get better. And little by little they will. I promise.... Sending you love today and always,Elisabeth
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